In November 2013, I was a healthy and active 56-year-old woman. A mountaineer, rock climber, telemark skier, sea kayaker and scuba diver. But, out of the blue, a few of my heartbeats skipped merrily out of sync, marking the beginning of a slow decline and leading eventually to heart failure and a heart transplant.
I write this to convey what a diagnosis of arrhythmogenic right ventricular dysplasia, also known as ARVD, meant to me as an active person. This is a disease that attacks the electrical system and muscle of the heart, causing dangerous arrhythmias that may result in sudden death with little or no warning. Little evidence of these cardiac abnormalities exists, which makes treatment of the disease challenging.
First, I had a surgical procedure to install an internal cardiac defibrillator, which allowed me to continue to pursue outdoor experiences. It occasionally shocked my heart back into a normal rhythm, saving my life. But soon, the disease progressed to rapid heart failure, leaving me with barely enough energy to pick a weed, let alone take a walk. A heart transplant was the only option.
Lying in a critical care bed, I began to talk to my heart each night before falling asleep. Putting my hand over my heart, I divulged how grateful I was for its wonderful companionship over 58 years. It had pumped ferociously and steadily as I climbed all those mountains. It made me strong and exhibited great endurance. I was not angry at my heart for giving up now. It was weary. And, like a companion, I would give it love until it was taken away from me.